Not-So-Wanted

Life sucks. 

I want a better family.

I want to feel loved.

Not treated like garbage,

And definitely not living in the basement- hidden.

Tired of being beat all the time for doing things wrong,

Sometimes for some things I didn’t even do.

I want to be like the other kids. 

Going to school,

Making friends, 

Well anything instead of staying here,

All day, all night. 

I go to the bathroom in a bucket,

and sleep on the ground

on an old hard mattress 

filled with holes all over.

No blanket,

No sheet,

Just how it is.

Everyday I eat bread,

and get one cup of water. 

I'm always hungry,

Always thirsty.

Well, 

at least she feeds me, 

and gives me water.

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She never lets me out of here, 

Haven’t even seen this thing called grass…

Whatever that is.

I want to escape,

and live the best life.

Not with HER.

She is cruel, 

harsh

and insensitive.

In my cell, where I live, it’s a small room with no windows,

well besides the door, it has a window, 

a big window actually,

with rusty metal bars covering it.

She used to homeschool me in here when I was little too,

but that just- stopped.

I’ve been thinking about escaping for a while.

Don’t know how, or when I'll even do it.  

After some thinking, I have an idea!

I know where the key is but I can't reach it, 

It’s underneath the blue and red mat. 

I could break the glass window and climb out but that would make too much noise. 

and it would hurt. 

Plus, even if I escape, what would I even do? 

Where would I even go?

I should have planned this before I thought of escaping.

After I get my food, I will try it.

And if it doesn’t work out, 

well, then I'm screwed!

I don't really want to try.

But if I want to leave,

I have to try.

I finish my food 

and wait for her to go outside.

Since the door is loud,

I will be able to hear it loudly.

I try to break the glass

with all of my body weight,

but it doesn't work.

The only outcome I got,

was an ache in my upper arm.

She comes in running

asking what the noise was,

and all I say was,

I tripped trying to rearrange my room.

She tells me to be more careful,

or else I would get into trouble.

She leaves again,

and I wait a couple minutes,

so she will be gone for good,

and so she can't hear me.

And this time,

 I have a better plan.

I use my feet to kick the window,

nothing yet.

I used more force,

with more kicks,

and then it worked.

I have an escape.

I reach over for the key,

Luckily,

I can perfectly reach it.

I grab the key,

I put it in the lock,

and try to remember how she does it.

I fidget with it 

until it twists and makes a noise.

It slowly opens, 

and I bolt out that door.

Running up the stairs,

I realize that,

i've never seen the upper part of this building.

I see the front door, 

red with a window,

and sprint out into the wilderness.